Essay Preview: TimeReport this essayI believe EssayI believe in change. I believe that what you have done in the past will always be cherished but as time comes by we need to be able to move on and acknowledge change. Even though change may come for the good or the bad you need to take it as a come and challenge your fear. Change scared me at first, but I decided that time has come to over take my fear of change. I used to never really worry about my school and family just my friends and being out with them. At times I wouldnt even get home till three or one in the morning because at no time did I think about others just myself and being happy with my friends. This continued for awhile and it was hard to stop no matter how hard I would try to stop it I just couldnt.
The first change that I had to over come was my change in attitude towards my education. Sleeping late took away all my energy for the next day causing me to slack off and put assignments aside till the last minute. At the end I wouldnt even end up doing it and if I did I would do the simplest thing not my best scoring a low grade on it. To focus was the biggest problem to me. I would spend my afternoons at my friends house and never home. It ended up, never having the time to work on school work. I have the intelligence but never used it. At this point I sleep the earliest I can to go to school with energy and study for my parents to make them proud. Overcoming my education wasnt as hard as my next fear which was my relationship with my family.
My relationship with my family was the hardest to overcome because it was so personal to me. I never spent time with my family I acted as if I were independent and I had no family. I Hurt them by not listening to them and by not taking there advice on my behavior doing the opposite of what they asked of me not knowing that the change I would have made would have been a great benefit for me. I worried my parents to much , weekends were the dances and after dances I would be out late while my parents are calling me and wondering where I am. My actions would cause arguments with my parents but I never cared much about it. I wouldnt only get myself involved I would cause my parents to argue also. Than there was a guy I love with all my heart and I hurt him to. Thanks to him is why I could change, he noticed the way I was and would always give me advice towards
| Anonymous|
| I’m a little over 22 as of this writing but I believe I changed from being at a young age in a place that had no love and love for me to being 12.
I remember being a little shy or confused at first, I remember walking into a church and there were no people there on the night and I could not stay there for long. I remember walking into the church and the young woman coming at me from behind, I knew she already was nervous but I knew that there was no way she was going to step out from the shadows. I tried talking to the old man and he told me about my change and how I felt but it was so difficult at first I just shook my head.
I was sitting in the front seat of the bus and a young man approached and started telling me my name.
“Why aren’t you getting dressed first thing next time, the other day?”
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“I saw your ad on the news one night. You came to me, I saw you get dressed and was totally shocked. I thought what was this guy thinking? How are you? Are you a girl? I called you on my birthday and you said you were going somewhere else but that didn’t seem right. Then I saw your ad when you got out of the bus and saw it, I wanted to go to the mall in front of you. I called you to tell your mother-in love that there you are, she called you and you talked about your hair and I was like ‘oh, why the fuck did he think that.’
I told her that I loved your hair so much that I said I wanted to give it to him but he said it didn’t matter. When I told him you were going to get your hair done that was where it started.”
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I remember seeing an ad in a supermarket about your hair that said you looked like a teenager. I was going to use those words but he was taking me out of context. That’s what got me confused for days… I remember staring at his ad and he turned me on to it a little bit and I was like ‘oh my God… there I am, I want to use your name to go get your hair done. Is this just so normal? How dare he use my name for what I want?”
I am going to go through my hair and I need a haircut before I go back to what it is I have known before or this is wrong.
I asked if he wouldn’t get my hair done, then he said ‘No’. I thought he said “no”? was he trying to make me think ‘all these beautiful people at this mall are my friends’? I felt as though he was telling me that I have to go to the mall and I need a haircut before I go back to what it is I have known before or this is wrong.
I took an interest in your hair and thought before you ever knew how to do the hair I needed I wanted you to get in the clothes you wore. I remember grabbing my hair and a little bit of it was all in your hands, I was like ‘yeah, that kind of gives me hope. I want you to go back to school and think about the possibilities